The Next Second

Is a tired day.

Everyday is a tired day.

Everyone is forcing their selves to not to be tired. Gods know. Maybe the day will be the most tired day you ever had.

Just try to look on the next second. Never look for now. FOR FUTURE !

Don't think of now. FOR FUTURE !

Tomorrow is a new day for me. Hope is a great day. I will be work as part time. Also is a freelancer for now. What I want is just everything around be could be change, including me.

Nothing much to say. Just hope some day I will be successful.

Trying..

Is a sad case for me that after few month I am totally de-active on my blog and now I am back with a f*cking silly mood. Apologize me.

Is hard to accept that your lover get a new crush / relationship between few weeks after break with you.

Even can't imagine that what you had share with your lover before and now is happen to she and her new lover.

I can't define what is love and hate. I love so I hate? I hate mean I love?

No idea.

Trying to keep a relationship better yet is broken.

Trying to spend all my time with her yet is not enough.

Trying to convince to save money to her future yet is a bullshit.

Trying to take care her health but i am NOT the one.

Trying to DO EVERYTHING JUST BECAUSE OF YOU yet I am too vex and bother for you.

And yet I am Pretend to know You Well !

I can't even count how many tear I had dropped. Can't even count how happy I am because of you. Changed everything for you. Apologize what did you lie to me.

END

Trying to keep myself busy all the time...

Trying to customize my body with full fatigue...

Trying to keep my heart open and won't let any single piece of memories stay...

Trying to cure my swollen eye to see my future and better STAFF...

Trying to be more toughness !

This is my currently FUCKING LIVE and yet it is not FUCKING PREFECT !

TRYING TO BE WHOLE NEW ME!